thoughts for the day: miss you...
if there's anithing i've learned over the weeks,its this:trying to breathe a sigh of relief when u're awfully stressed out doesn't help at all...
why??
because everytime i tried to do tt, i felt even worse..my sighs got heavier and longer and useless...and i was never at ease...and sleeping at night was worst...i woke up like every goddamned hour trying my very hard not to sigh...
FYI i dont even know who or what am i sighing about...im clueless for fuck sake lar...and i dont even like the feeling of being clueless...it makes me feel inadequate lar...and i've been really paranoid...i used to love being alone at home or sleeping by myself at night..but now i just need someone to be around...a living breathing human being to be within my reach...how bad can it get huh???!!! this paranoia thing is realli killing me lar...i cant stand being alone and if im alone,i will sleep thru...i just dont wanna wake up being alone in a house nimore...haiz...*aper nk jadi huda???!!!*
anw i have this award presentation going on this sundae...and im not sure i want to go or not..not my kinda of thng....and ouh did i mentioned my gpa dropped from 3.5 to 3.227 and i got a D for audit...a fucking D..what the hell did i do do get tt grade sia...??!!!and now i dont noe if i even wanna go to poly...im tired of everything..of studying or mugging or making new frens again...just tired lar...!!
d only thing im looking forward to is buying a new fone...so tts all for todae and the rest of the week...!!!
Thursday, April 05, 2007
"is it wrong for me to feel this way,
u've been running thru my mind all day,
can u feel me??
i've been trynna get u off my mind,
but i can't after all this time,
that's what kills me..."
